Dont Let Me Drown

"Help! Somebody, help me!" It was a call of desperation, a hope that was falling deeper and deeper into the endless ocean. The fear that grasped her throat was immense, almost too terrible to bear. She struggled furiously but could not get away, and the waves, cold and relentless, now buried her head once again. The numbness was overwhelming, and she could no longer deny that death was imminent.

But she struggled on, for she was not ready to relinquish her life, the life to which she'd held so dearly. Pain continued to consume her fragile body, and she began to wonder if she really deserved this horrible fate. Gasping for breath, she shook her head angrily, a vain attempt to forget the moments leading up to her present state, one of distress and agony. "How could you do this to me?" she screamed at the top of her lungs. But there was no reply. Perhaps she was expecting none. The sound of the wind was unusually loud today, as if it'd grown louder to match the pounding of her heart. Swamped by a huge wave, their boat had capsized, throwing the two into the deep waters, which had swallowed them whole immediately.

Then, without any warning, he suffocated her heart. He swam in the other direction. There was rhythm in his strokes, rhythm with which she failed to identify. The silence that prevailed was so thick that even the furious wind had no way to break through it. And he disappeared just like that. "How's this separation possible?" she wondered. "I'll never be whole again." All their memories vanished into the mist; this newfound nothingness left her feeling bare. Promises that once tasted as sweet as honey had sunk into bitter emptiness. That night their bodies were intertwined, and as his strong hands slid down her body, she came to know pleasure in its truest form.

The guilt was just as tangible, however. It manifested itself in drops of tears at first, but an ocean of grief soon emerged, destroying the world in which she'd once found security and innocence. Holding her breath, she dived into the bottomless ocean, hoping to recover her pearl of purity...hoping, just hoping.